its been sometime since i update horrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..
been enjoying myself lately, indulging in good food, great snacks and come to regret thereafter.
i am back to 55-56kg. and i realised its the muscles together with fats that resulted in this gain.
i wanted to be slim and sleek and not bulgy & muscular lor. tsk.
ive been treating this whole thing as a race for many reasons, for people, for friends, SO and lastly for myself.
but now it turns out so bad like i got no choice but to change my destiny into a marathon.. zzz..
*i am typing all of this while working, so i am actually typing with out thinking, pardon me;p*
the stress feeling is hitting me again, butterflies flying in my stomach till my head.
how can i not be? its going to be end of the month soon and yet i am here doing NOTHING.
i have to fold my 1000 cranes by end september. if not i won't have anytime to study already.. :(
seeing others getting their results is giving me a great impact, cos this retake in november is damn crucial.
i dont wanna be a numb skull and waste another year away. i have to get in.
say im wasting my time from 16yrs old until now. by all means. i just want to study hard now and have a good career.
i need to aim high, i have to upgrade myself. because this corporate world is way too scary..
(im sorry, ive got tons of things to say today, i just need to rant out whatever im unhappy, sad, happy with)
my workload is piling up because of my perpetual absence from work. well, sometimes im really sick but at times. (u know lahh.)
ever since i started taking MC, im getting lazy, i dread even more coming to work. hai. and i hate saturday the most now. zzz.
im going to quit next yr, by then im going to eat grass from my unpaid leaves. haiz... i wonder how am i going to find a job that has the same salary as the current one. its not easy :( for a gce o level student to hold this amount. zzz. i dont believe why i cant do it. whereas there are dozens of young entrepreneurs out there. and i am alrdy getting 20! 20 for goodness sake! im still standing nowhere.
r/s?
so far so good, still going strong. i am still showing attitude at times which i'm trying to change still.
but sad to say, jealousy always comes in between.
nevertheless, we always manage to solve all the issues. HE always, i should say..
alright, october gonna be a tough month for me. i gonna cancel all my activities if there's any.
very mad about mr bean. ;O
some times i need to be alone, sometimes i need to keep things to myself.
i am eccentric, i am malleable?
cos it hurts saying out..
KAILEI, WEILING, BIRU! LETS JIAYOU TOGETHER ;D
